Life goes on. This is how I see the world now.
Anyways, part of the not being stuck in moment scheme I have going is reinventing myself. I was thinking I could overhaul my wardrobe but then again, it's not gonna be me anymore. I wasn't too good at being girly to start with! Maybe when I have time, I'm gonna have something done to my hair. Get a haircut. Whatever.
I gotta sleep, I have work tomorrow at 6 am. I don't wanna be late and upset Chupabz! ^_^
Today wasn't a good day for me. Too much stuff going on, in my personal life as well as in the office. I need a breather. So I figured instead of wallowing in self-pity, I'd rather think about my happy thoughts - so I came up with this list:
Things That Make Me Happy*
*List is subject to change
Hmm, now that I've had time to think I couldn't actually find a reason why I shouldn't be smiling right now. ^_^
I've had time to think things over, and I have no regrets. We did have our differences. But after all's been said and done, I'm glad we ended up as friends. We still text a lot. It's funny though, the transition was almost seamless. We went from being long-time lovers to being friends in just a snap. And it's ironic coz now that we're no longer together as a couple we stopped arguing about the things that we argued about all the time. XD
Right now, the only people who knows we're no longer together were the poeple from the office and a few guildmates from HOL. His folks and mine don't have the slightest idea. Even both of our sibs don't know it yet. I wonder how I'm gonna break it to them. Even most of our friends don't know it yet! People have been asking me where he is, and I don't know what to tell them! I just give them my usual "He's in Laguna." It's a safe answer, since he really is there and I'm not compromising myself in any way. Right now I am not in the mood to explain to everybody why we broke up.
Anyways, I'm on my own again - after 4 years! And I found that I actually like the feeling of being unattached! I love being free, and being able to do things whenever and wherever I want. Sure, I miss being held by someone who loves me but I've got friends who can always give me a hug to comfort me.
I'm not gonna be a hypocrite and say I don't miss Carlo. 'Coz I do - a helluva lot! I wonder when I'm gonna see him again, and what's gonna happen. He told me he's coming to Manila next week, and he asked if he could see me. I said "Sure"..
Geez.. "I need some distraction, oh beautiful relief.."
That's why I made this new blog! And I'm planning to go back to playing RF, to keep my mind off "things". Also, Miss Joey was asking me if I would wanna take some computer classes in Informatics. Thank God for my friends, my job, and online gaming for helping me keep my sanity!