It's been 3 days since Carlo and I broke up. Surprisingly though, I am actually OK. Sure, I've shed my share of post break-up tears but I didn't get my eyes all puffy. My friends wonder how I do it - bouncing back so quickly. And honestly, I don't know. Maybe it's because I'm so fiercely independent that I refuse to be tied down by "just" a break up.
I've had time to think things over, and I have no regrets. We did have our differences. But after all's been said and done, I'm glad we ended up as friends. We still text a lot. It's funny though, the transition was almost seamless. We went from being long-time lovers to being friends in just a snap. And it's ironic coz now that we're no longer together as a couple we stopped arguing about the things that we argued about all the time. XD
Right now, the only people who knows we're no longer together were the poeple from the office and a few guildmates from HOL. His folks and mine don't have the slightest idea. Even both of our sibs don't know it yet. I wonder how I'm gonna break it to them. Even most of our friends don't know it yet! People have been asking me where he is, and I don't know what to tell them! I just give them my usual "He's in Laguna." It's a safe answer, since he really is there and I'm not compromising myself in any way. Right now I am not in the mood to explain to everybody why we broke up.
Anyways, I'm on my own again - after 4 years! And I found that I actually like the feeling of being unattached! I love being free, and being able to do things whenever and wherever I want. Sure, I miss being held by someone who loves me but I've got friends who can always give me a hug to comfort me.
I'm not gonna be a hypocrite and say I don't miss Carlo. 'Coz I do - a helluva lot! I wonder when I'm gonna see him again, and what's gonna happen. He told me he's coming to Manila next week, and he asked if he could see me. I said "Sure"..
Geez.. "I need some distraction, oh beautiful relief.."
That's why I made this new blog! And I'm planning to go back to playing RF, to keep my mind off "things". Also, Miss Joey was asking me if I would wanna take some computer classes in Informatics. Thank God for my friends, my job, and online gaming for helping me keep my sanity!
I am a 24 year old female who still cannot come to call myself as a woman simply because I am like a child in a lot of ways. I am an online gamer and I have a several jobs but I fix people's flights and hotel problems for a living in the real world. I cry over rock songs but I cannot play any instrument. I have people screaming, crying and cursing at me for 40 hours in a week and I can still be nice to people. I suck at doing girly things but I love flowers in the pouring rain. I do not like arguments but I stand fast to my beliefs. I am my own person. I can be your pleasant surprise. 
