Ok. I dint't play RF just yet. Blog Quiz spam with rolf and vox (YM conf). Somehow lifted my mood. I feel like myself again. Here's a few that stood out:
| Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover |
You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. |
| Slow and Steady |
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it. |
| You Are a Peacemaker Soul |
You strive to please others and compromise anyway you can.
War or conflict bothers you, and you would do anything to keep the peace.
You are a good mediator and a true negotiator.
Sometimes you do too much, trying so hard to make people happy.
While you keep the peace, you tend to be secretly judgmental.
You lose respect for people who don't like to both give and take.
On the flip side, you've got a graet sense of humor and wit.
You're always dimplomatic and able to give good advice.
Souls you are most compatible with: Warrior Soul, Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul |
9:24 AM
Listening to: Coral Sky [Dishwalla]
Hey, don't let the sun go down
Don't let it end here now
Cause you're right, and I'm everything you're not
Could I ever be the oneYey~ I am not sick anymore, and I've got plenty of time to spare to update :)
Watched The Davinci Code with the guys from the office after the shift. It was uh, pretty much like the book. I wasn't expecting Teabing to be that old though. LOL. SM decided not to show te film so everyone flocked to Robinson's instead. There were like 5 cinemas showing DVC. But still, there's a lot of people considering the fact that it's only a Thursday. Imagine what it's gonna be like during the weekend! The 7 of us ended up getting seats on the second row though we arrived early. Crap, my neck hurts. I even dozed three times during the movie. I got dizzy from the screen being too close to me, and I lack sleep too. I was up until 1 am last night, texting and reading.
Last night I got three guys telling me that they miss me. Haha~ Carlo, Aaron and Xave. Oh well, I really do not know how to react. Carlo's been up and down since we broke up. The last time I saw him, he lost weight. He's somewhat not the same anymore :( Last night he said he's missing his friend - me.
Xave, a friend I met in college asked me out last night. But I told him I've already got plans for today. So we'll just go out next time. He said he's hoping he could see me again, he missed me. Well, I hope he understood what I told him years ago - that we could only be friends.
Aaron (my other ex) and I had a decent conversation after almost 5 years! He tracked me down thru friendster. I actually had a decent chat with him today. I found out that he's smoking like hell though he swore off smoking cause his dad died of lung cancer. And I'm afraid he's also bulimic, he said he throws up everytime he eats. Cripes. Anyways, he said he some stuff about him being too fragile when alone and me not being there during the darkest times in his life. And he said he's happy to talk to me coz missed me so much. He asked if we could go out. I said I'm gonna think about it. Haha~ As if.. Men! *rolls eyes*
Honestly speaking I'm enjoying being single. I think I'm gonna go this way for a while. My heart's safe, and my mind's at peace XD. Well, maybe I could go out on dates once in a while to break the monotony ^^.
| In a Past Life... |
 You Were: A Kind Magician.
Where You Lived: Alaska.
How You Died: Natural causes. |
Who Were You In a Past Life?
A kind magician?!? WTF! ~_~
Uh oh, time check. It's almost 9, gotta attend CW :)
11:36 PM
Listening to: Myself [Coughing and sneezing and sniffing]I've been sick since Saturday, so I wasn't able to update. Anyways, here's a rundown of what happened the past few days:
Sunday: Got stuck on the 20th floor of Jollibee plaza because on a blackout around 1:30 am. Took about 30 mins for the power to come back. And uh, did I mention I was ALONE in the whole floor?
Monday: Still sick. Was late for work. Payday - woot! Carlo and I went to Megamall together. Yes, it's our 2nd friendly date. LOL. Went grocery shopping too, and he carried my shopping bags! :) Friends with benefits? Hell, yeah!
Today:
Wee~ It's my day-off and it's 2x PT/drop/mine rate at Altrax coz Bellato won the Arms race. I'm still a bit sick though, but playing my a** off! :D Carlo went back to Laguna na nga pala..
Gah! I can't think straight. Must be from all the meds I took. Will update when i'm coherent. Rawr~ ^^
9:16 AM
Listening to: Unspoken [Natasha Bedingfield]
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else..It's been raining non-stop for two days now. And that's the same length of time that I haven't been home. Right now I'm in the Jollibee plaza office, killing time. So I blog, as Typhoon Caloy blows out his fury outside..
I left for work yesterday morning (Friday) , thinking that it's just gonna be a normal workday. It was Sir Mike's B-day, woot! When I got to work I sent him some bogus email asking him to click on the URL for his b-day blog. He was surprised, I could tell. ^^ After the shift everyone in the GEVC account dropped by Jollibee plaza since there's pizza waiting for us! *yummy* The b-day treat ain't over. Miss Joey, Sir Mike, Bonito, Ate Rey and I watched Poseidon at Robinson's Galleria. It was good. I don't wanna say anything more since I might spoil it for those who haven't watched yet.
After the movie, Ate Rey and I dropped by Megamall to pick up the stuff we need for Ms Joey's B-day surprise for her babuy - baloons, gifts, etc. while she dragged Sir Mike to her place to have a CSI Las Vegas marathon! We ended up purchasing 2 dozen silver and blue balloons, blue boxers, white sleeveless shirt, a navy blue shirt and the latest copy of FHM (with Eula Valdez on teh cover). We finished shopping at around 5:45 PM, but it was so freaking hard to catch a cab home.
I had the highlight of my day when I was crossing the street, with a dozen balloons held over my head and the rain falling down. It felt like a scene out of a movie or a music video. People were looking at me, and smiling too! I guess it cheered them up a bit, seeing some girl walking in the rain with balloons and smiling foolishly though everything's gray and dreary that late afternoon! ^^ To me it was almost like getting flowers in the pouring rain. I wonder who's gonna bring me flowers now? Haha~
We ended up sharing a van for hire with a woman who lives in Acacia Lane and three teenage girls who got off at Shaw Blvd. The woman actually mistook us for college students! ROFLMAO! Me maybe, but ate rey? She needs to have her eyes checked, seriously. When we got to Mandaluyong, we fixed up Sir Mike's room. I placed the boxers, shirts, FHM and gift stubs in a white box with blue and white wrapping tissue. Then we covered the floor and his bed with balloons. And it turned out great! I'll post the pics later, promise :) By the time we were done it was too late for me to come home to Pasig, so I slept in Ate Rey's room. Good thing I brought clothes with me!
Sir Mike's B-day Surprise Pics Got to work early today. Haha~ And now I know what kind of accent I have. I was talking to a client today when he suddenly blurted out: "I bet you're from New York. I can hear the accent, coz I'm from Philadelphia !" Ok. So I'm a New Yorker now. Ha ha ha.
After the shift today I stayed with Ms Josy and Sir Mike and watched 2 CSI episodes. Then we left for Pier One. Sir Marlo and Sir James were there already, as well as Bonito, Fong, Gilbert and Rey. Boss Lee came round bout 5pm - and the drinking started! Too bad for me I have work
now and I got the colds. I only got to drink bottomless iced tea, and ate to me heart's content! I must've downed like 10 glasses, and got drunk with laughter! It's fun watching them all get wasted and say/do stupid things! We shared a table with the owners of Pier One (since they were Boss Lee's friends) and they gave us our Pier One Privilege Cards! ^^
We left at about 10, Ritch and his wife Janet drove me here (to the office). Right now I'm all alone in the 2oth floor of Jollibee Plaza. I wonder if Queenie will come tonight, I sure as hell hope she does. I could use the company =/
I'm cold. So I'm gonna brew some coffee. Coffee, anyone?
P.S. Oh yeah, I saw him today after 3 months. It was uh, kinda awkward. Not gonna elaborate. Coz he just might read this!
2:47 PM
Listening to: Best I Ever Had [Vertical Horizon]
"...And it may take some time to patch me up inside..." Weee~ I can't believe it's almost Friday already..
Anyways, I got lots of things to be happy about!
Soulrun got to lvl 33 *dances around*
It rained yesterday, and today too - yahoo! (it ain't as HOT as the past few weeks)
I got 30% Book to Show Percentage last week~ (the highest we've got so far)
Heck, my work load is getting heavier and heavier but I actually welcome the challenge! By the way my Refresher Course went A-Ok yesterday, my Ops Director and Training Manager loved it! ^^
Saturday night is night out with the BIG bosses - yey! I opted to have Ate Rey as my date! Gay friends are so great, haha~
And Monday is payday! *big grin*
Ok, back to work! Haha~ Will update later! LOL :P
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My shift went ok, not super but not crappy either. Everything just felt "lighter" after Ms Joey had the talk with Bonito and Ritchie yesterday. After the shift I had lunch at Megamall with Ms Joey, S'myk and Ate Rey. We even saw Jun and Queenie there. LOL :P
Got home around 2:30 then I showered, so I could sleep. Right bout 4 pm my cell woke me up, it was Carlo. He's sad daw, coz everything seems to be going wrong with his life right now. Uh, oh. We texted until 5:30, him being in Calamba and me being here in Pasig and I tried my best to cheer him up. I was partly successful, up until the part where his dad scolded him again. I actually like this set up better. We stopped having those petty fights, I can do whatever I want. We're good friends, goddammit. In fact we're going out for another friendly date on Tuesday. But deep inside, it actually makes me feel guilty that right now he's the one who's broken *sigh*
Anyways, went to Ingen after that and played RF (that's when I took Soulrun's screenies ^^). I played 1 on 1 DOTA with Shaider. Then the guys invited us over for a 5 on 5 game. LOL =P Twas weird playing with those guys! I was used to playing with Carlo's barkada, not other people. I didn't get to finish the game coz my PC rebooted, without me doing anything =/. Anyways, it was fun tho. Especially when I get to pawn those guys' heads (/gg) and they couldn't complain because they know it's a girl who killed them! LOL =P
Right about now, I'm hungry. So I think that's it for today :)
1:08 PM
Listening to: Walking Away [Lifehouse]
"...From all that you made, that you lost or threw away; Traded in for a brand new life; But I can't, can't let go.. can't turn around; Hold my head high and walk away..."
Wee~ It's early sunday evening. Just had a KFC dinner (oh God, think I'm gonna sprout em wings soon!) I got home from work around 9:30 today. I was awake for 24++ hours, as usual =P. Spent saturday afternoon at Sir Mike's place with ate rey and ms joey just hanging out and watching videos from their Bora vacation last year :) Then later when it was just ate rey and me, we watched Skeleton Key (w/ Kate Hudson) on dvd, had a corned beef dinner, watched PBB, and MTV Asia Awards (up until Fave Artist for Philippines w/c Rivermaya won BTW) because I had to leave for my midnight shift. Good thing I had my overnight bag with me. LOL :P I think every Saturday I should have one with me since I always end up crashing at someone else's place!
I got to Emerald Ave quarter to 12 MN. I passed by 711 for my food supply XD and continued to Jollibee Plaza. Like every Saturday night for the past 2 months, I was by myself. Imagine going up the 20th flr of an almost empty building at 12 MN - alone. When I got to the 20th flr, the lights were out and I'm the only one in there!
Queenie was late, she came around 1:30! Good thing I was in a good mood. I didn't have anything to do, I started on my pet project - Sir Mike's b-day Blog (
http://mikeebob.blogspot.com). It's a surprise we have for him for his b-day on May 12 :)
I had another marathon chat sesison with that someone who stays up with me :) We talked about his job, family and realtionships. He finally told me why he was so cold towards people - he got hurt, bad. We also talked about me moving on :) Speaking of moving on, here's another
ym chat I had (with vox dei) :
Vox Dei: Wui~ Muzta na? ^_^
Angelfyre005: hello
Vox Dei: hi
Angelfyre005: hehe
Angelfyre005: eto ala magawa
Angelfyre005: hehe
Vox Dei: Ahehe..
Vox Dei: owkie ka na?
Angelfyre005: yup, im all good
Angelfyre005: hehe
Vox Dei: >_<
Angelfyre005: batet?
Vox Dei: ker lang. yaw ko iyak ate ko... >_<
Angelfyre005: uu..
Angelfyre005: di nako umiyak
Angelfyre005: after nung wed di na
Angelfyre005: sabi ko sa sarili ko last na yun
Vox Dei: >_<
Angelfyre005: hehe
Vox Dei: moved on?
Angelfyre005: moving on..
I guess I really am ok. I don't get those random episodes when I suddenly wanna burst out in tears. We still text though. And just a while ago I found out he's sick. Too stressed I guess, his folks are having problems. He mentioned something about his mom leaving for the States. *sigh*
Oh well, I can't think straight! Too many people IMing me on ym! Haha~
12:09 PM
Listening to: Someday [Nickelback]
"...Someday, somehow I'm gonna make it alright but not right now..."
Woke up at 4:30 AM, got to work at 6. Got pissed before the 9 AM break, let out steam and was ok again. Ate at Mocha Blends with Ms. Joey, S'myk, Queenie (who's having an LQ with her bf Jun), and Ritch who footed the bill for breakfast! XD
Got off work at 12:30, went to the other office to collect my SPIF and allowance from Chupabz. Yey~ Lunch with the same people I had breakfast with courtesy of KFC delivery. Had a bunch of laughs. Went home by 2. Traffic's bad so I got home by 3.
Showered. Played RF and leveled 1 def PT. Got bored. So I edited my blog layout (again!). Filled the empty spaces at the bottom of the side panel with pictures. And ramblings. Then created this post.
I'm gonna have dinner in few minutes. Then maybe do some laundry. Afterwhich I'm gonna watch TV. Get sleepy, take another shower. And sleep.
End.
I almost forgot, today was supposed to be out 4th year anniversary. My sis sent me a note on Friendster asking me: "Uh oh, Single?" (Mitchie Girl - Female, 21,Single). She knows. And she cried.
Also, it's my parents 22nd wedding anniversary. What an irony. Oh well, tough luck.
9:45 AM
Listening to: Goodbye to You [Michelle Branch]"... And when the stars fall I will lie awake. Your'e my shooting star.."
We're just gonna be friends for the time being. At least I know that now. I came to terms with this fact after we had our first "friendly date" in 4 years yesterday...
We met up at Megamall after my shift. I felt funny. For the first time in years we didn't actually kiss when we met up; we didn't hold hands when we walked; we didn't hug after not seeing each other for 2 weeks; he didn't say, "Hi Baby!"; instead he greeted me with "Hi kulit!" Heck, it felt weird!
We had lunch at Tokyo Tokyo since I was craving for Ika fry. I was really stiff at first, and he asked why I'm so nervous, so I made up some lame excuse that I couldn't even remember now. We watched MI-3, at that was even weirder. I felt uncomfortable just sitting there in the dark. He kept asking me if I'm ok, and I kept saying I'm just cold. Normally, he would've put his arms around me but this time he didn't. He actually blamed it on me not bringing a sweater. Oh well..I was uncomfortable but I actually enjoyed the movie. XD
Anyways, after the movie we strolled around megamall for a bit. Went to the usual shops we visit and spent a couple hundred bucks in Timezone. Then we went home. We talked a lot. But not about the things that we really ought to talk about. When we got to Pasig we played DOTA at Ingen where I kicked his ass! LOL :P We had dinner together at the usual place and started talking about more serius stuff. He asked me about work, etc. Then he asked me how I really am. I said I don't know..
After dinner we hung around our usual spot and talked more. Before I knew it, twas already 10 PM and I have to say goodnight. I have work at 6am. Then he asked of he could hug me one last time. I said ok. He held me, and I cried..
Last night I had the answers to my questions.
How are you supposed to forget?
- You won't, because the heart will always remember.
How does one pick up the pieces?
- You don't, you move on.
How will you make it on your own?
- You will, somehow. Coz you always have.
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And I play this song over and over..
Goodbye to You [Michelle Branch]
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again T
he last three years were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you C
losing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought
I knew You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love T
he one thing that I tried to hold on
And when the stars fall and I lie awake
Your'e my shooting star..
8:20 AM
Listening to: Shimmer [Fuel] ..."Coz I have found, all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade away - again.."Wee~
Today's my day off, and I got up late. But lo and behold, when I woke up I have one sms msg from my Ops Manager asking me to send her a copy of the Minutes of the Meeting we had yesterday. LOL =P So I had a quick breakfast, and went about typing the minutes then sent it out. S'myk (our training manager) was OL and asked me to read the new GEVC Training Manual - which was like 40 pages! I made a few suggestions, and then he told me to rest since it's my day off anyways. It makes me feel good that he included the guide that I made when GEVC was just starting out to the comprehensive manual. I think he's serious about pulling me out of Ops and making me a trainer! XD
I had lunch alone. And since I haven't got anything better to do I decided to play RF. I was just in time for the 1 pm CW. I got killed, but it's ok coz we won! XD Gah, I can't level up! Too many raiders. So I'm blogging, instead of PT grinding!
Nothing to do, so Blog Quiz Time!
| You Are More Mild Than Wild |
 You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive. |
7:19 AM
Listening to: Cool Off [Session Road]
..."Palayain ang isa't isa.. Kung tayo, tayo talaga..."
I woke up feeling good today. I even caught myself humming a tune while walking across the almost empty parking lot on my way to the office. And what's funny is that I was talking to myself and smiling at at the same time. It's not a wonder why some people are looking at me funny. I couldn't care less. Haha~ Coz I am happy (I'm a shooting star! XD)
I enjoy my early morning walks, when the sun is just warm enough to wake my sleeping limbs and I can feel the breeze caressing my face. I used to hate waking up early, but then I realized that the world actually looks different in the morning. It's just so peaceful :) I like seeing the old woman who does her exercise at the back of the Taipan Building and the occasional joggers who pass me by. I like the emptiness of the parking lots around Emerald Avenue, and watching the spaces fill up as the day grows older. There's just something so poetic about it. I remember when our office was still in Prestige Tower, I used to cut a whole sheet of bond paper into smaller pieces and then throw it out of the 25th floor window, making a wish and watching them get blown by the wind and landing on the roofs of the cars parked in the lot below.
Anyways, it's a whole new month. Another clean slate, a fresh start. May is gonna be a happy month, I think. Flowers bloom the prettiest in May right? So I just have this gut feeling that this month is gonna be good for me :) Crazy notion? Not! It's my rent's 22nd wedding anniversary on Friday and I still haven't gotten a gift for them. Uh oh.. And it's my sister's 20th birthday on the 19th. She's asking for a new mp3 player, so I think that's what I'm gonna get her~
I went back to playing RF last Sunday, and it's funny coz I'm using the controls for DOTA! LOL! I kept on pressing F1! And much worse, I kept on pressing the right click button for character movement. Speak about being away too long.. Anyways, it was fun. I missed playing the game. And oh, I was able to borrow an Intense Seige Bow from Sagiri! Yey~ I also partied with a few guildmates when I got home from the office today and managed to get to level 32! XD But I'm tired, and those meat chilos are making fresh meat out of me so I figured I'm gonna play again tomorrow - when I'm in the mood for running around. ^^
That's all for now. I've got reports to finish so I'll post more tomorrow, since it's my day off and I haven't got anything to do.
10:44 AM
I am a 24 year old female who still cannot come to call myself as a woman simply because I am like a child in a lot of ways. I am an online gamer and I have a several jobs but I fix people's flights and hotel problems for a living in the real world. I cry over rock songs but I cannot play any instrument. I have people screaming, crying and cursing at me for 40 hours in a week and I can still be nice to people. I suck at doing girly things but I love flowers in the pouring rain. I do not like arguments but I stand fast to my beliefs. I am my own person. I can be your pleasant surprise. 
