Listening to: Goodbye to You [Michelle Branch]"... And when the stars fall I will lie awake. Your'e my shooting star.."
We're just gonna be friends for the time being. At least I know that now. I came to terms with this fact after we had our first "friendly date" in 4 years yesterday...
We met up at Megamall after my shift. I felt funny. For the first time in years we didn't actually kiss when we met up; we didn't hold hands when we walked; we didn't hug after not seeing each other for 2 weeks; he didn't say, "Hi Baby!"; instead he greeted me with "Hi kulit!" Heck, it felt weird!
We had lunch at Tokyo Tokyo since I was craving for Ika fry. I was really stiff at first, and he asked why I'm so nervous, so I made up some lame excuse that I couldn't even remember now. We watched MI-3, at that was even weirder. I felt uncomfortable just sitting there in the dark. He kept asking me if I'm ok, and I kept saying I'm just cold. Normally, he would've put his arms around me but this time he didn't. He actually blamed it on me not bringing a sweater. Oh well..I was uncomfortable but I actually enjoyed the movie. XD
Anyways, after the movie we strolled around megamall for a bit. Went to the usual shops we visit and spent a couple hundred bucks in Timezone. Then we went home. We talked a lot. But not about the things that we really ought to talk about. When we got to Pasig we played DOTA at Ingen where I kicked his ass! LOL :P We had dinner together at the usual place and started talking about more serius stuff. He asked me about work, etc. Then he asked me how I really am. I said I don't know..
After dinner we hung around our usual spot and talked more. Before I knew it, twas already 10 PM and I have to say goodnight. I have work at 6am. Then he asked of he could hug me one last time. I said ok. He held me, and I cried..
Last night I had the answers to my questions.
How are you supposed to forget?
- You won't, because the heart will always remember.
How does one pick up the pieces?
- You don't, you move on.
How will you make it on your own?
- You will, somehow. Coz you always have.
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And I play this song over and over..
Goodbye to You [Michelle Branch]
Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with tears from behind my eyes but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again T
he last three years were just pretend and I say
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you C
losing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought
I knew You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love T
he one thing that I tried to hold on
And when the stars fall and I lie awake
Your'e my shooting star..
I am a 24 year old female who still cannot come to call myself as a woman simply because I am like a child in a lot of ways. I am an online gamer and I have a several jobs but I fix people's flights and hotel problems for a living in the real world. I cry over rock songs but I cannot play any instrument. I have people screaming, crying and cursing at me for 40 hours in a week and I can still be nice to people. I suck at doing girly things but I love flowers in the pouring rain. I do not like arguments but I stand fast to my beliefs. I am my own person. I can be your pleasant surprise. 
