Nothing to do. I'm waiting out the end of my Sunday shift. Traded sked with Ritch. I was s'posed to post an entry about something else entirely. But I decided against it. I'm just not yet ready to let the world know about that.
Soo loving this:
LEAVE THE PIECES (The Wreckers)
So I came up with this - random song lyrics that just popped into my mind ~
I would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I had
But if you want I'll try to love again..
- Sheryl Crow, The First Cut is the Deepest
When I find out who I am
I'm gonna know just what to do
When I pull myself together again
I'm gonna give myself to you..
- Train, Give Myself to You
You've been sad
Your're misunderstood
Did you find your kind
Like i knew you would?
- Josh Kelly, Everybody Wants You
Aren't I lovely and do you want me cause
I am hungry for something that will make me real
Can you see me and do you love me cause
I am desperately searching for something real?
- Plumb, Real
Like eager angels falling from heaven
I'd give it all up to feel the pain with you..
- Session Road, Eager Angels
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
- Howie Day, Collide
I'll stay with you
The walls will fall before we do
Take my hand now
We'll run forever
I can feel the storm inside you
I'll stay with you
- Goo Goo dolls, Stay With You
Hello lonely
How you doin' today?
Hello sweet thing
Why don't you walk this way?
- Theory of a Dead Man, Hello Lonely
One thing is clear, I wear a halo
I wear a halo when you look at me
But standing from here
You wouldn't say so you, wouldn't say so if you were me
And I, I just wanna love you
Oh oh I, I just wanna love you
- Haley James Scott, Halo
May he turne 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just a day he said down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it ..
- Anna Nalick, Breathe (2AM)
Just read between the lines :)
Listening to: Good Morning Baby [Dan Wilson & Bic Runga]
Good morning, baby
I hope I'm gonna make it through another day..
The last time I updated, I was hyper. And I still am. Must be all that coffee I had. And that something else is still with me. :)
My week has passed me by in a blur. Geez! Time does fly. Last time I checked, twas Monday morning and I was feeling too lazy to get out of bed. And now it's already early morning Sunday!
Things were'nt going so well at work. The friggin brokers are up to something and we think it ain't good. Anyways, we're gonna have a couple of new accounts coming in. And hopefully by next month I'm gonna be back to my GY Mon to Fri shift - which means no more waking up at 5 am and no more work on Sundays! Plus I get Saturday and Sunday off! Woot~ I just hate my sched. I know I've been ranting about this for quite some time now. Haha! But having to work on a Sunday is just soo annoying. And Tuesday for a day off? Ano naman magagawa ko nun?! Sheesh~ But I have got to do it. Since it's my job, it's in my JD and because no one else can (Yes, call me conceited but no one else can do it. That's why I'm back to this swinging sked of mine). And it's not just my career that's on the line, but the agents' as well. So I have to do it properly! X3
On. The. Line. Is it time? Is it right? Is it ok? Sheesh~ So many questions! Haha! But I feel good. And right now I could hardly care..
Ok, so that last paragraph was just sooo vague. Even to me. Haha.. I'm actually just typing whatever that comes to mind. ^^; So yeah, on the line. Reminds me of this Teddy Geiger song:
cause everybody tries to put some love on the line
and everybody feels a broken heart sometimes
and even when i'm scared i have to try to fly
sometimes i fall
but ive seen it done before
i got to step outside these walls..
Sometimes I wonder if its worth it. Mending you heart and putting in back "out there". Then have it broken all over again. *Bitter Laugh* Heck. I should know. I've had my heart trampled down a couple of times already. Well, I think it is worth it. And I believe I can survive having it broken one more time, and then another.
***[For You'll-Know-Who-You-Are-When-You-Get-To-Read-This-Entry: Thank you for making me feel good. I just hope I'm gonna be good for you as well.]
Listening to: Hello Lonely [Theory of a Dead Man]
Hello, lonely
How are you doing today?
Hello, sweet thing
Why don't you walk this way?It's been over a week since my last entry and things have been pretty hectic. Not to mention that I've got too much stuff goin on inside my head than I'm letting on..
July 8 - Went to the Bellato GEB @ Phoenix with my HOL guildies. I was finally able to meet Zepplin, ElBimbo, Malkav and Railshark :) I had Zepp and Hossie meet me at the MRT Magallanes station since I don't know my way around Makati. Then we went to Pacific Star and met up with ElBimbo. Then off to Phoenix! Antherion and Chino was there as well as Valfogg and Neoma. It's kinda weird and fun at the same time to see the faces behind the avatars that I see in game. Some were mere kids while the others were uh, not so young. Haha~ And teh chixilogs! LOLers! ^_~ Anyways, it was fun. Chaotic fun if you ask me! Haha.. Too bad the other HOL peeps weren't able to make it. And speaking of this GEB thing, I've got some guy (who claims to have seen me there) PMing me IG and sorta asking me out. /swt And I thought no one noticed me since I had my nameplate kinda concealed. LOL! Even the guys from Zeal (Bellato Nexus) saw me! Haha~ Woot~
The past few days, more and more people are going OL (HOL Altrax). We managed to get to 1 page +. Yey! And most of the old RF peeps have decided to come back! I love it :) Haha! Plus, I'm excited about the RP Story System. I'm almost done with Soulrun's profile na. So far she's got a dead father, a loving mom, a lil bro and uh, a bodyguard who's got a crush on her! LOL~ More and more reasons for me to play! XD
Flush Team with Teh Banana MAUL-R: Railshark, Zakurestu, Sagiri (inside his BMAU!), Soulrun and Legatosynthesis
Last week we ended up having to let two agents ko. *sigh* It's never easy. But there's nothing that us, the management team can do. It's a good thing though, that the sales have picked up when I started doing the GY confirmation shift again. Which means, no weekend for me. = ( Gah!
Yesterday I had lunch with Carlo. It was, uh awkward. He got me flowers. He knows how much I love flowers when it's raining. But somehow it didn't do anything for me. *sigh*
Anyways, I was able to get some of the stuff I want for my wishlist! Woot~ Haha.. At least I'm going somewhere. ^^; Geez, my back hurts! LOL. I need a back rub or a full body massage! XD Weee~ Something is a making me hyper these past few days. Haha~ *wink* And I like it. I haven't smiled this much in a few months eh. I hope this keeps up, I could use the enthusiasm.
Listening to: Over my Head [The Fray] "Everyone knows I'm in Over my head, over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
He's on your mind, he's on your mind.."
Wee~ I wasn't able to update in two weeks! I've been quite busy. And when I'm online I'm usually on RF mode, and by the time I'm done playing I'm too tired or sleepy to write anything! XD
Anyways, I've been very busy with work and with helping the agents pick up their numbers. And so far so good. Sales have been good for the past two weeks that I've been doing the midnight shift. On the downside, Tuesday na uli ang day off ko! Which sucks bigtime because (1) Everyone I know is either working or in school and (2) RF maintenance. So there, I'm left to watching One Tree Hill reruns and waiting for the maintenance to end so I could go OL since I can't go out - wala akong kasama X_x. Darn my assistant for not doing what she's s'posed to do! Arghh >_<>
Last week was pretty bad for me. I had dizzy spells. And I even spent one day in bed. Stupid migraine was killing me and won't let me keep anything down. My manager said I might have vertigo, sincee she went through the same things I did. Uh oh. Noo~
Symptoms of Vertigo
- Blurred vision (check - can't see the letters on my keyboard during the dizzy spells)
- Fatigue and reduced stamina (check - I feel tired when I'm not sposed to be.)
- Headache (check - T_T.)
- Heart palpitations (rapid fluttering of the heart) -
Imbalance (check - I can't walk in a straight line. And I tend to lean on my left side nowadays.) - Inability to concentrate (check - Hehe~)
- Increased risk for motion sickness
- Muscle ache (especially of the neck and back)
- Nausea and vomiting (check - Yuck! )
- Reduced cognitive function (i.e., thinking and memory)
- Sensitivity to bright lights and noise (check - I'm not comfortable with earphones stuck to my ears anymore. Wahh~ )
- Sweating (check - I break out in a cold sweat even at midday.)
I'm goin to the doc on my next day off. Right now I just don't have the time.
Moving on. RF was fun fun fun! We had Guild PBH since Thursday! Wee~ Hehe. And I'm lvl 36 na! Woot ^^; More and more people are goin OL in the guild. And I'm glad to have them back. I missed those guys while I was away. I miss Killey tho. Haven't seen him in 2 wks na. The last time we talked he said he's gonna be in Omi to try and get the 15 keens and 15 sets of high gems. I hope he makes the top 100 :). He promised me a set if he wins! >:) I've also accumulated quite a few RF buddies! Yey~ All the more reason to play! So here's my latest batch of RF screenies:
Soulrun, LegatoSynthesis and Kohaku prepping for CW.
Legato, Thiek, Kokahu and Soulrun waiting for teh Pit Boss
First day of Guild PBH. We camped for more than1 hr!
Prolly, Hoseah, Soulrun and snup waiting for the ship to Ether.
Last night with Killey - before his Omi vacation.
I am a 24 year old female who still cannot come to call myself as a woman simply because I am like a child in a lot of ways. I am an online gamer and I have a several jobs but I fix people's flights and hotel problems for a living in the real world. I cry over rock songs but I cannot play any instrument. I have people screaming, crying and cursing at me for 40 hours in a week and I can still be nice to people. I suck at doing girly things but I love flowers in the pouring rain. I do not like arguments but I stand fast to my beliefs. I am my own person. I can be your pleasant surprise. 
