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I am a 24 year old female who still cannot come to call myself as a woman simply because I am like a child in a lot of ways. I am an online gamer and I have a several jobs but I fix people's flights and hotel problems for a living in the real world. I cry over rock songs but I cannot play any instrument. I have people screaming, crying and cursing at me for 40 hours in a week and I can still be nice to people. I suck at doing girly things but I love flowers in the pouring rain. I do not like arguments but I stand fast to my beliefs. I am my own person. I can be your pleasant surprise.
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007


Listening to: This Time (First Edit) by Mikey, drinking coffee and munching on brownies


This Time

do you see?
ive been trying to feel you here..
do you feel?
all these things that i can feel
(oh yeah..)
do you know, that ive been thinking of you all the time
so now tell me what are you planning now

Refrain:
I cant wait, i cant think
im so excited for this
i know i will never forget so..


Chorus:
Take me to the place where ive been wishin for..
this time i know you're there waiting for me
all the time(why dont you~)
take me to that place where my dreams will come true
cuz now that i know that this is real..

i want to feel it
never letting go
i know thats it
this time


do you see
ive been trying to tell you
all these things, oh
i'm tired of thinking bout me
moving, going, pulling away, oh..

I cant wait, i cant sleep
im so excited for this
i know i will never forget
why don't you..

Chorus:
Take me to the place where ive been wishin for..
this time i know you're there waiting for me
all the time(why dont you~)
take me to that place where my dreams will come true
cuz now that i know that this is real..


i wanna feel it
never let it go
I know this time
it's never letting go
i know that's it this time

Happy Lurv~ Day People!


I can't wait for 8am. Gonna watch Music and Lyrics with Mikey later. *wink* I'll update more laters~

6:52 AM

Friday, February 09, 2007

Listening to: Beautiful by Patrick Nuo



Here's to two months..









... and more :)

5:57 AM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


Listening to: Sweet Home Alabama


It's monday For me (Tuesday for the people who sleep normally), and the first day of my working week. I'm bored. Mikey's not OL in Y!M. He's asleep i think, since he wasn't feeling too good when I left for work earlier this evening. Sheesh. Ganito pala. Now i know what it's like for him when he's waiting up for me. I miss him already. Too bad we didn't get to spend more bonding time last weekend. I had migraine the whole Sunday. And he was really sweet, taking care of me and all that. He made it a point that I took my meds, he even made chicken noodle soup for me and took away the remote so I won't stress my eyes from watching too much TV. So there. I had my monthly migraine attack, which spoiled our plans of finishing that half bottle of tequila we had left over from last week. I woke up just in time for CW (which we won!), had dinner and went back to bed since my head was throbbing again. I woke up hungry around 4 am Monday. I woke him up, checked up on Souly since we left her AFk mining at the core, only to discover that his DSL gave out again! Sooo.. Since we were both hungry, we went down to the kitchen and fried a couple of chicken wings. We had a really early breakfast of crispy chicken wings and coffee. Then we had ice cream for dessert (at 5am!), and ended up having to close all the windows because we were both shivering from the cold :D


Back to the present. I'm reduced to spamming the RF boards while sipping coffee from my RF mug, for lack of better things to do. Which reminds me, I need to give the new screenies to ate Candy so she can make a new mug for me. I wish I have RF here in my office PC. That'd be perfect. Haha~ Dream on Souly.


Ooh, btw.. oski stepped down as archon since he's uber busy iRL. Bellato-Altrax has khengkoi (piloted by Stann) as Archon now. I Hope everything turns out ok - CWs and AOP Project for starters. It's a bummer Technocrat didn't make it to the top 30 during the nomination. It makes me feel better knowing that he's in the council. since I can count on him (or his brother hextor) to be there during 9pm CW. Oh well.. I hope he makes it next week. Since Tech was always there to command the troops last week, I was on scout mode! Hoho~ I was able to use my cloaking powers! Uh, twas fun yet hard to be a scout. Darn Alpha1 members. Why do they all have to own detect headsets and pawn me?!?! And ohhhhhh! Bailey can now craft giga exploding vulcan mags! Yey~


On the bus on my way to work tonight I picked a seat on the left side of the bus - directly behind the driver. I was quite surprised myself because I usually pick a spot on the right side, by the window. But since my usual place was taken (2nd row, right side, window seat), I settled for the nearest window seat available. I have Jam blaring on my earphones while the bus was showing Apocalypto. I got kinda dizzy, trying to focus on the music in my ears while at the same time reading the subtitles from the film. It's a bummer I didn't get to finish the movie. since I think it's really good. I almost missed my stop coz I can't take my eyes off the TV. XD

Anyways, it was kinda refreshing to see the road from the other side of the window. I saw things I didn't notice before. Like how nice it is to look at the lights from buildings and cars from that side of the bus. I noticed buildings and landmarks that I didn't know existed, plus a bunch of other stuff. Anyway, my point is: I can be really close minded sometimes. Especially when I fervently believe that I am right. LOL! I think that's the reason why my dad and I argue so much. We are both stubborn that way. So. back to my close-mindedness.. It wouldn't hurt to try and look at things - from the other side. I'll try this. For my sake. ^^;


Work is slow. Ate mickey's not in, since he isn't feeling well. I'm left to do the collection and verification all by myself. geez. Anyhoo, Ritchie talked to me when I got in today, he mentioned that there's gonna be some major changes with the account that we're handling now. Oh well. Que sera, sera. And yeah, I just finished signing my PA like 10 seconds ago. I hope I get an increase. I sure could use one. XD Not that I'm complaining about the pay I'm getting, I'd be happier if I get more! Hey, I deserve it. I work hard, my bosses like me.. Hoho~


Sheesh, almost 1 am. An hour more before break time. I dunno what to eat for lunch. Hurr. Anyways, nothing left to say. I'm not in the mood to call just yet. Might as well start reading this thing that Cha`Faile shared to me over Y!M.


1:20 AM

Friday, February 02, 2007


Listening to: Just Say the Word by Josh Kelley

Wee bee to me! It's been soo long since my last update. Christmas and New Year has come and gone. It's 2007 already, February 2007 by God! I've been a MIA blogger for too long. Time for me to put a stop to that. :)

Anyhoo, quite a lot has happened since my last update. Lemme see what I can still remember. XD

Work - I've been real busy with work. I do verification and collection now. Plus, I'm the one in charge for orders and talking with the suppliers. The load of work I'm getting drives me crazy sometimes. But heck, it's my job. And I gotta do it.

RF - I am still BA, still at level 45! Loving the game more and more. I wish I have more playing time though. Damn my sked. Saturnine got to lvl 45 a few days ago! Yey~ I have my very own personal tanker! *winks* Now we just need to complete his +3 int set. Then time to get Bailey (our crafter) to level 40! Payaman mode. :ninja: Hoho~ And oh, did I mention that Sat's in HOL already?

Mikey & Me - I've known him for almost 5 months now, and we've been a couple for almost 2 months. It's all good. I can't believe I could be this happy with someone. I spend my weekends with him now at their place in Bulacan. And I love every minute of it. Having coffee in the morning while playing RF.. Him singing for me.. Watching TV together.. I sleep better when I'm with him. Lawl~ I could go on and on about what I love about him. Truth is, I love everything about mikey. *Laughs* I can't believe I'm in love with a smoker. And yes, last weekend I got drunk with him! And both of us could barely remember what we did afterwards. Haha. I now find myself counting down the days until the next weekend. Just like what I'm doing now.

Looking back at 2006 - If there's one thing I learned about myself last year, it's the fact that I am strong. Yet I am weak. Work has been really challenging. I learned about my strengths, and was humbled when I learned about my flaws. I've gone through 3 boyfriends. I got off a 4-yr relationship, fell in love with a guy 3 yrs my junior (which lasted for 5 months), and then I met mikey.. Fell hard, and falling harder still. Looking back, I'm happy with the way things turned out. Save for the part when I hurt people I care about. 2006 left me with a lot of scars, but I wear them proud.

Gah. Enough. I just miss mikey.

6:54 AM