Listening to: Home by Chris Daughtry
"I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me."

Seeing all those students on their way to school made me realize that it's been 7 years since I left home to go to college. Now I'm 22. I haven't been home in 3 years. When I think about it now I can barely remember the street names in Kalibo. Weird. I lived there for 15 years. Yet when I imagine myself there, I feel like a stranger. I haven't seen my dad and my baby bro for a while now. My mom and younger sister come over (to Manila) and that's when I get to see them. Doesn't happen often though.

I was jobless for 2 weeks last month. And it scared me more than I dare admit. I felt like a fish out of water. For 3 years I was so used to waking up with the thought that I have to get to work. What scared me more about losing my job was the thought that if my folks found out about it, they'd ask me to come home to Aklan and just look for a job there. Something which is totally unacceptable. For one, I'm gonna be under my father's scrutiny day after day. That's one thing I can't stand. Also, I'm sure as hell that we're (my dad and I) gonna have argument after argument about what I need to do with my life. He's got big dreams for me. I wanna fulfill them, sure. But in my own time. I wanns be able to do things that I wanna do. I'm happy with my life, and with who I am. Also, bojo's here. Nuff said.

Anyways, I have a new job now. I got accepted the first time I applied for one. They put me in a travel account, which is fine by me. Training's tough, but I can handle it. I kinda feel alienated from my batchmates though. I feel like some of them look at me differently because I'm almost always the first one to come up with the correct answer or get perfect scores during exams. I get along with them all but it's kinda hard for me to make new friends. I don't mesh with a lot of them. I told bojo about it and he said it's like I'm looking for one peso coins but I'm just seeing 25 centavo coins - that's why I don't pick em up. He's got a very good point. Maybe I'm being too critical of people because I've always been critical of myself. Yeah, I think that's it. :)